I've had a hard time writing lately, because of course I relate everything to Kona. So, this isn't anything to do with CCS, or training, or caring for dogs; it's just about my grief.
It's coming up on the 3 month anniversary since I had to say goodbye to Kona and I'm crying like it was the first day. Everything reminds me of him, and I know that life will never be the same. I have never felt so lonely. No one will ever fill that hole in my heart and in my soul, but I can't wait for the day that I see pictures of him and I think of nothing but the great times we shared, instead of crying for a week. I can't wait to sit down to breakfast with friends and talk about this awesome dog I had, without welling up with tears and just shaking it off to move on to another topic.
I appreciate all of my friends and family for being there for me. And for still understanding the hard time I am facing. For making me laugh and for letting me cry. And especially for keeping me company, even though I am often miserable to be around :)